I held you in my arms

I thought you were dying

I wanted to love you even in death

But the sun shined on that balmy Autumn day and you didn’t die and I had you all over again

But now I fear that, for you, being alive will hold an agony that you cannot bear

And I worry what that will mean for me, for us

And I want to hold you close and stroke away your tears, and fears

And pain